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Today I ran errands (ALL the errands!). Tomorrow I have to clean. And see our friends. And drink champagne. And eat lots of food. So much food. I don’t think there’s any food left at Wegmans. (I’ll tell you a secret: I bought it all.)
The previous paragraph is what I typed when I grabbed my laptop to keep it from falling off of the chair. Secret of the universe? Key to unlocking time? Too simple. Maybe it’s the code to get to next year. Way to wait until the last minute to reveal it, universe.
You want to know how to make my blood boil? Close a help desk ticket of mine without resolving it. I don’t care what company it is, what the service is that you’re supposed to be providing me, or how big or small the issue I reported was. If you haven’t resolved it or are still waiting to get some information from me, DON’T CLOSE THE TICKET. Morons.
Have some pretty to end your day. These are our anniversary flowers.
Published December 28th, 2011 at 11:10 pm by Zannah in John with 5 comments
11 years ago, we made everyone fly to Kentucky in the snow (I think there was snow – I could be wrong) to watch us get married and then get hammered. (Sounds like we were the only ones who got hammered. Far from it, my friends.)
Published December 24th, 2011 at 11:33 pm by Zannah in holidays with 2 comments
For the first time in living memory, we’ve gone to bed before midnight TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW while staying with John’s family. Tonight, we all have hours and hours in which to dream of sugar plum fairies (or David Tennant – whatever floats your boat). Molly is a college student who has to be dragged from her bed in the morning now, not the five-year-old who woke me up with hilariously frantic whispers at 6am that first Christmas morning. Aging. It’s a wonderful thing. To a point.
It’s not cold enough. I should be happy about that (I hate being cold), but it’s hard to feel Christmas-y (or Hanukkah-y – yes, I’ve been lighting candles this year. Please pick your jaw up off the floor. That’s not sanitary.) when you barely need a coat to go outside. I’ll get over it. Just as soon as we hit the road. Which can’t be soon enough for me. What I’m really looking forward to is the time off. I need a long, long break. Or maybe…yeah, we don’t talk about that on the internet.
I also didn’t mean to publish that yet. The Publish button looked a lot like the Save Draft button just then. Whoops. (For those of you coming late to the party, first of all, shame on you. Get it together and be on time. Secondly, it’s kind of obvious what just happened, so this explanation is unnecessary.)
I regret my choice of post title now. Not just because it’s dumb, although that should be enough. No, I regret it because that song is stuck in my head now. I like it fine, but I’ve been having this problem all day, and I can’t settle on a song I’d be happy to have looping through my brain all day. I woke up this morning to the theme from The Price is Right (thanks to the episode of How I Met Your Mother we watched last night), but I started to tell John about it and immediately switched to “You Were On My Mind” by We Five. (John, you were right. It’s We Five.) Maybe I can get that one back. I’ve always liked that song. Wish me luck!
I don’t have a fear of crowds. I don’t have a fear of speaking or performing in front of people. Right now, though, I can’t seem to make myself go back to my gym classes. I haven’t been in about four weeks (I’ve been to the gym plenty, thank you very much, but only to work out on my own), and even though I really like those classes and I really like the people who take them and teach them, I don’t want to see them. I’m hiding. My plan for this afternoon was to stop working around four, go get my nails done, and get back to the gym in time for Muscle Blast and then yoga. Four came along, and I found myself procrastinating. Why would I do that? Why would I waste time when I could be at the nail salon? The later it got, the less likely it became that I’d have time to get my nails done in time to make it to class. And then I started trying to decide which I would rather do if I only have time for one. And then I realized that it’s the Wednesday before Christmas and I haven’t wrapped any presents yet. If I don’t do some (or all) of it tonight, I’ll only have tomorrow evening to get it done, and really, where are my priorities? The gym will still be there tomorrow morning (for weights) and tomorrow lunchtime (for cardio) (same for Friday), and if I have time, I can still get my nails done. And if I don’t have time, who cares? They can wait. Or I can – brace yourselves – do them myself.
So the anxiety I was feeling about going to the gym morphed into anxiety about my to do list, and I’ve sent it all away by deciding to wrap presents and watch TV and drink wine until John gets home (from another office Christmas party). I win!
I started a post today on my work laptop when I didn’t have internet access. To get it, I’d have to turn on my work laptop, wait the half-hour for it to boot, and then wait another five minutes for Word to open. Not worth it. It wasn’t that great anyway. Something about getting up early and being sleepy. It wasn’t done, but still. It can wait. But I really did get up early and I really am sleepy.
The shopping for presents, it is done. Except for one small thing, but it’s easy to get. We spent SIX HOURS at the mall yesterday. It was insane, but everyone seemed to be on their best behavior. We didn’t witness any tantrums or pepper-spray attacks, although the staff at the restaurant we had dinner in dropped five plates, broke a glass, and spilled some wine right next to our table. (Those were three separate events, not one big disaster. All in the space of an hour. Not their best night, I think.)
You know how it feels when you find something unexpected? Something good. Like last year’s $10 in your winter coat pocket. (That one in particular hasn’t happened to me, but you know what I mean.) It doesn’t have to be big. It just has to be nice. A couple of weeks ago I was writing test scripts for work, and I needed a fake name to fill in a particular field. I picked a fairly innocuous name, familiar to me and many of you, but not to most people. I moved on. Today, I was helping out on that project again, setting up the test data and tweaking some of the scripts. I got to that field and asked the guy who took it over from me what name to use (having completely forgotten what I’d chosen weeks ago). He told me, and I laughed, thrilled with myself for setting it up that way so I could have a private little geeky giggle. Yay me! The name? Harriet Jones. (No room in the application for a title, sadly.)
It went a long way towards making my 4:15 wake-up call (to get to Baltimore today) bearable. Not all the way bearable, but closer.
It’s amazing how much better I feel, how much looser, more relaxed, now that my exam is over. I didn’t know how much it was weighing on me until I was done. (It went well, for the most part. I think. (Does a comma go in that sentence? I can’t decide.)) I was telling Mom earlier that I think most of the stress comes from trying to balance school and work. I don’t feel like I have enough time to devote to school because of work, and I don’t want it to take up all my free time because, you know, free time is necessary, but I can’t really relax in my free time because I know I have schoolwork to do. I know – life is hard, and I’m only taking one class. Boo hoo. Now shut up. I’m saying I personally don’t handle it very well. But now, now that the test is over, now that all that’s left is work (which slows down during the holidays because everyone takes time off) and present shopping, I can maybe enjoy these here holidays. Take some deep breaths. Look at the pretty lights. My neighbor at the bottom of the street has these icicle lights that actually look they’re dripping. But she might think it’s weird if I go stand on her sidewalk and stare…
In between memorizing steps for how to solve different types and systems of equations and doing practice problems, I browsed my usual sites. Just a little. When I needed a break. Since I still have some stuff to do, I’m going to bombard you with links. Good ones, I promise.
It’s a poem, but it might as well be a tongue-twister. Check out this link and then tell me how many words you can’t pronounce (or aren’t sure of). Five for me (all words I’ve only seen in print, never said out loud).
Published December 12th, 2011 at 10:12 pm by Zannah in school with 2 comments
Why am I putting off studying for my DE final? I’m sort of studying now (I’m listening/sometimes watching (because the professor is long-winded and inclined to digress) to a recording of the most recent e-meeting.), and I’m definitely absorbing information, but I’m not in the mood. Not a good sign when you consider that I have to take this final this week.
I have no words of my own stuck in my head. Only songs. Songs from commercials, songs from musicals, Christmas songs – all kinds of songs, but nothing to write about. Unless you want song lyrics. I’ve got plenty of those. Rhythm, too. Who could ask for anything more?
I don’t mean to turn this into a look-at-the-funny-pictures-on-the-internet kind of blog, but sometimes I can’t help myself. That’s been happening a lot. Besides, it still counts as inane. No false advertising here.
(From reddit, where I have been spending too much time.)
My moods are tied way too closely to the weather.* I woke up to a bright and sunny (and cold and windy, but who cares when you’re inside?) morning, was in no rush to get up, and had tea and pop tarts. (Mmm…pop tarts.) Then I found the funniest thread on reddit about mispronounced words, I’ve been laughing my ass off for about 20 minutes, and I can’t imagine why I wouldn’t start every day like this.
*This is not entirely true. There are plenty of rainy, snowy, or otherwise gloomy days when I am happy as a clam (usually because I’m snuggled up warm and dry with a book).
Today was a good day to stay home. And luckily, that’s what I got to do. It rained nonstop (it’s still raining), serious, steady rain, and I didn’t have to go out in it. Except to go to the gym this morning with John. In the early morning (but not too early) when there are practically no people there (and the ones who are there don’t want to talk), the gym is a nice place to be. I mean, it’s always a nice place to be, but I’m not capable of dealing with people today. Not all people, of course. Just the not-close-friend-and-family kind. The acquaintance kind. The kind of person you run into when you go to the store or take the dogs for a walk or go to a class at the gym. The kind you have to smile for, even when you don’t feel like it. Ooh, that didn’t come out right. Smiling is fine. I don’t want to put the effort into chitchat. It’s been gloomy and I have a headache and I want to take a bath and read my book and write run-on sentences. And fragments.
Did I mention the headache? Breakfast for dinner tonight, then a bath (glass of wine and book included, of course), then hiding from the band rehearsing in the basement. Although they’ll be a jazz combo tonight, so it might be mellower.