I’m not afraid of my boss. She and I see eye to eye on most things, we get along well, I know I’m a valued employee, blah blah blah. But some days, when she sends me an email asking me if I have a few minutes, or if I can come by her office to talk, I get nervous. Like I’m being called to the principal’s office. Like I’m in trouble. Have I done anything? Not that I’m aware of, but I’ll start to get paranoid about something small, something that no one would get in trouble for, but maybe it’s something I thought twice about doing. Not once have I ever gone to her office and found that I AM in trouble, that I HAVE done something wrong. Will I ever grow out of that?
Friday morning at work, I was havingaday. Like, a DAY. It was nuts, and not in a fun way. So lunch was french fries and one of those little hot fudge sundaes from McDonald’s. It helped. John hates those commercials for chocolates that show a woman taking a break and savoring tiny bites as she gazes out a window onto a beautiful view and so do I, but I have to admit I took a moment for myself when I ate that first bit of ice cream and hot fudge. Commercials don’t lie!
I don’t care. Leave me alone.
That’s what I wanted to say all day at work today. Nothing bad happened – it was mostly a normal day, but I didn’t really feel like engaging with anyone. Go away, everyone, I don’t care. Leave me alone. I just want some quiet time.
Luckily there’s a weekend in my immediate future. And an outing!
I don’t want to do the whole cliché “I hate Mondays” thing, like Garfield or that song by that one guy where the girl kills herself (I almost typed “where the girl girls herself” – I have no idea what that could mean), and NO, I don’t have a case of the Mondays, but ugh. Mondays, you know? (I really mean this, but I’m finding it hard not to smile at the ridiculousness of writing about it – ooh, solution!) They wouldn’t be so bad if we had a day off in the middle of every week. No work on Wednesdays! That’s my battle-cry. Or it will be. My focus is entirely on lunch right now – more specifically, putting off lunch. I’m hungry NOW, but I’m going grocery shopping after work today, which means dinner will be later, which means I’ll be hungry while I shop, which is bad. So. Eat lunch a little later, make it through grocery shopping without buying everything in sight because I’m the hungry hungry caterpillar. I can do it. I can make it to 1pm. I can.
While I’m watching the clock, let’s talk about something completely different: it is fundamentally funny to overhear developers having serious conversations about clobs and blobs. Yes, I work in IT, and yes, I know what they are (in the most general way – for the curious, they refer to different methods of storing data in a database. Those of you who know better: how wrong am I? No, wait – you don’t have to tell me), but that doesn’t make the words less silly. The visuals are fun, though. Maybe the world on the other side of my cube’s wall is animated. It’s a childishly-drawn cartoon where clobs and blobs have faces and personalities and need to be readily identified by others. You know, maybe.
I’ve been trying really hard to be a caring manager and a good boss, create a fun working environment, all that sort of thing, but I keep almost screwing up birthdays. (Hey, celebrating team birthdays is fun.) I have everyone’s birthday on my work calendar, so I know when they’re coming up.
Incident #1: My calendar showed one for a new team member for last Tuesday (the 21st) and another one for last Friday (the 24th), so Tuesday morning, I went to Wegmans and picked up some balloons (we know how to party around here) and another coworker picked up cupcakes. Well, Tuesday was the day the snow started midmorning and we all headed home early. Coworker #1 (whose birthday it was) checked in with me because she wanted to avoid the commute altogether and work from home. Whoops. So much for her birthday stuff. I emailed her back and wished her a happy birthday. She responded with confusion. Turns out her birthday was the following Monday – I was just completely wrong. Nice. The rest of us couldn’t let the cupcakes go to waste (or wait overnight), so we divvied them up and took them home. J She doesn’t know that. And since Coworker #2’s birthday still really was Friday and he wasn’t coming in at all that day (Tuesday) because of the snow (so he wouldn’t know) AND he was going to be out on the actual day of his birthday, I moved the balloons over to his desk. Recycling. We had cake for him on Thursday.
Incident #2: The following Monday, Coworker #1’s ACTUAL birthday, I had planned to pick up a cookie cake and balloons on my way in. TOTALLY forgot. Thankfully, I get in almost an hour before she does, so I went racing back out to the store. Back no more than a minute before she got in, but it totally counts. She doesn’t have to know that, either.
I think I’ve wandered from the point. What is my point? Oh. I’m trying really hard, guys, and still can barely get birthdays right. It’s a wonder I ever get the real work right.
Why haven’t I learned this lesson yet?
It’s never a good idea to go to work on the day you’re going to travel.
I should get that tattooed on my arm. This was not a normal Friday. They’re usually pretty slow, pretty easy. Today should have been typical – my schedule was wide open. I should have had plenty of time to do the things I needed to do before leaving. Did that happen? Of course not! Today’s the day everyone needed something. I did end up getting the big things done and postponing the rest, but I spent the morning in a frenzy of activity. Not the good kind of frenzy.
Frenzy is SUCH a weird word.
Now let’s hope I can get the last-minute packing details done before the cab comes. I hate it when the cab arrives before I’m ready. Of course, I hate it more when the cab is late.
We are free from our manipulative real estate agent! Hooray for us! She actually fired us. It was kind of awesome. She said she couldn’t sell it at this price, we said we weren’t willing to change it, and she suggested we sign a release from the agreement. We win! And now we’ll take a little time, maybe enjoy the holiday season, and do it on our own soon.
I was doing so well with keeping up here, and then last week started. It was a horrible, crazily busy, totally exhausting week. Work was nuts, our evenings were not our own, and we just got back from a whirlwind 36-hour trip to PA and back for Emily’s engagement party. I can barely keep my eyes open. We braved Wegmans to get the basic pre-Thanksgiving shopping done, mostly because I have pies to make. Lots of pies. This year I actually need to double my recipe.
I’m too tired to make any more sense, so I’m going to shut down the computer, heat up dinner (we scored leftovers from the party last night), and watch TV with John. I might last another hour, max. I will try really really hard to post regularly again. I like it.
I have decided to stop feeling like I’m behind on everything. I’m not behind on the internet; now I’ve got lots of wonderful things to catch up on. I’m not behind on reading (now that I’ve finished my book club book); I’m reading at my own leisurely pace. I’m not behind at work; I’ve just suddenly got two jobs to do, and I’m keeping up as best I can. I’m not behind on blogging, either. It’s not like I can go back and post something for all those days my mind was elsewhere. I’m where I’m supposed to be, and that’s okay.
Yoga class was nice last night. Can you tell?
Sorry about yesterday. This week was kind of odd. Busy odd. Like, I can’t remember sitting down and relaxing much odd, even though I know I must have. My brain needs lots of help to get out of work-mode, which is why I’ve been relying on other websites so much. Today will be no different. Thanks to Tom and Lorenzo, let’s talk about Channing Tatum.
I like him okay (I’ve seen him in one movie and a couple of interviews, and he was plenty likeable), but I don’t find him attractive at all. Certainly not HAWT, like so many other women seem to feel. I think it’s his head. And neck. The combination of the two. They’re thesame size. I have the same issue with The Rock and Vin Diesel. It’s a type, and it’s not mine. Channing Tatum, at least in this suit, looks great if you only look from the shoulders down.
I still think he’s a little too body-builder for me. I’m sure John will be relieved to know I’m not going to leave him for Channing Tatum.
I can’t multi-task anymore. I probably never could, but it didn’t used to be so obvious. If my brain isn’t ready for, oh, let’s say…work, then work isn’t going to happen. But when I’ve flipped the work switch to ON (and all connections have been made – no shorts here), then work is all I can do. It’s all I can do, it’s all I can think about, and it’s all I can talk about. It’s really annoying. It’s fine during the workday, of course, but REALLY not okay once I’m home. I don’t have that kind of job. And look what I’m doing right now! Stop it.
Hey, brisket sandwiches! Are a wonderful thing. I had one for lunch. And we’re having leftover non-Mexican chicken corn chowder for dinner. Because it turned out pretty yummy.
My favorite people are the ones who danced with the guy. I think I’d be one of them.
This is fantastic. Question: could it really be the cat’s first experience with snow? How did the cameraperson know to be ready?
My car dies sometimes. We thought we were holding the problem at bay by pulling the master fuse when we’re not in the car because that would keep the accessories (radio, lights, clock, etc.) from draining the battery while it’s off. John was supposed to be using the time we were buying by doing that to research the problem so he could fix it for me. We got about a year out of the last battery, which we replaced right after Christmas (just a few weeks ago). Fresh new battery means no problems for a while, right? Yeah…no. I was able to start the car (and drive it places) three different times Monday night (after leaving it sitting in the driveway for three full days), but Tuesday morning it was dead. Since I still pull the master fuse out every night, nothing on that panel can be what’s killing the battery (there goes my new radio). The locks have been acting up all this time, too, so that night when we got home (in the dark, in the rain), John unplugged the relay for the power locks (and possibly some other relay, but I haven’t found anything else that’s been disconnected yet). So far, I haven’t had any issues (and I was already used to using the key and the manual locks to lock and unlock the car since the power locks have been so unreliable). Okay, it’s only been a day and a half. We’re going to try not to use my car all weekend again as a test. From Friday night to sometime Monday, we’ll leave it sitting in the driveway and use John’s car for any errands. If it starts after two or three days, then we’ve probably found the problem. I’m not sure what happens after that. Is the relay bad? Or is it something in the wiring?
Man, I’m much happier focusing on this issue than the stuff that’s happening at that place I have to go to every weekday.
People annoy me. I had lunch today with someone I’ve barely seen or talked to in months (we don’t work together anymore), and it was kinda good and kinda awful. Awful like I don’t want to talk to her anymore. Good like it was nice to catch up, but awful like after about 20 minutes, I couldn’t handle listening to her (and didn’t want to share anything from my life, either). Lunch ended eventually, though, and I got to come home and relax a little and then I got to go to yoga and relax a lot. And now I have to give Roxy her medicine (her 5 tons of medicine), so I’m off. Sorry for the lack of entertainment going on up in here.
Today has been the longest day. At least three different times during the workday (and again just now), I was convinced it was Tuesday night (or possibly Wednesday). That much has happened since I woke up this morning (which, admittedly, was earlier than usual because it’s one of John’s boxing days – more on that later). Actually, not that much happened today that’s of interest to anyone I don’t work with, but it was a super busy day. And I got my year-end bonus. Yay me!
I’m trying to reconnect with whatever feelings of calm I found yesterday while I was getting my nails done. I went to my favorite place, and they were completely empty. I was the only customer and no one seemed to be in the mood to talk (which was fine with me). It was so peaceful, utterly quiet except the god-awful muzak they were playing (which I tuned out as much as possible), and now I have awesomely hot pink toes. However, I also have a rock band playing in my basement (for the first time in months), so peace and quiet are nowhere to be found. Instead, I will play online and watch adorable videos, like this one.
This is almost as good as the cat on the roomba.
My site has been really weird the past two days. I don’t know if it’s just on my end or if it’s affecting any of you, but loading takes forever, and half the time I get an error or get logged out. I should have called GoDaddy today, but I was barely able to work today, let alone get anything else done. (Hey, Mel, is Mercury in retrograde again or something?) I’m not sure I’ll be able to publish this, actually (because of the technical problems I’m having, not because I’m in a funk). Let’s try.
I took Riley with me on my run the other morning – huh. Feels like several days ago, but it must have been just yesterday morning. It’s only Tuesday. Shoot me. Anyway, a deer got really close to us. I think he wanted to play. It was cute, but Riley was a little freaked out. The deer was following us down the trail, and Riley kept checking it out over his shoulder, ears pinned back. It eventually ran ahead of us, and he calmed down, but it made for a very exciting morning.
We don’t get out much. Actually, part of why I’ve been MIA is because I did get out over the weekend. Went home to visit Mom and Dad and Corey and Mindy and Mark and Gaby and Candy. Watched a gaggle of six-year-olds play soccer, found that I’m a natural at soccer myself (when one of those six-year-olds is the goalie), picnicked by the lake, played catch, flew a kite, got sunburned, went for a run – and that was all on Saturday. It was a whirlwind weekend, but I got to see everyone (for not long enough, but it was better than not going).
And now it’s the work week, the last week of the fiscal year, when everyone freaks out, and I have to go to DC every day. Here’s hoping next week is better.
I think I’m going to save all my vacation time so I can take the entire month of September off next year. The weather is perfect, the sky is this beautiful September blue, and I can’t enjoy any of it because I am STRESSED OUT. Like, to the max. Totally. Roxy is sharing my stress because Riley stole her toy filled with peanut butter. She got most of the peanut butter out before he took it, so I’m not really sure what she’s complaining about. Still, it’s nice to have someone else around as stressed as I am.
No memory problems today. That I’m aware of. Just a growing sense of annoyance that I have to work. Don’t throw things – I know I’m whining. Today wasn’t even a bad day. My meetings went fine, I got some stuff done, and I did it all from the dining room table. I spent the first part of the morning in my workout clothes (with my post-workout sweaty smell), and then I showered and spent the rest of the day in my clean yoga clothes (because it’s Wednesday). Why bother putting regular clothes on when the next time I leave the house it’ll be to go to the gym for yoga?
Can I be a little bit annoyed at how dark it is at 8pm already? When did that happen? Now I need to get a headlight or something for my bike. I was invisible on my way home from yoga a few minutes ago. Heh. Yoga makes me invisible. Cool. Until I get hit by a car. Not cool.
The weekend is upon us, and I can’t tell you how happy that makes me. Sure, we have work to do (seeding the lawn is on the agenda for tomorrow), but it’s a THREE-DAY WEEKEND. Three whole days. Once I stopped working today, I was even inspired to clean up a bit. I may have been watching Cinderella (and singing along) while washing dishes and cleaning the countertops, but you weren’t there so you’ll never know for sure.
I started reading the next book club book (Before I Go to Sleep) last night – it’s fascinating. The next meeting is a week from today. I’ll have this one finished before the weekend is over.