I’m probably making this harder than it has to be
I was going to post something yesterday, but then I didn’t. True story. And one of my better ones, I know.
You know how sometimes people suggest doing something together (“We can carpool!” or “You can sit in here with me!”) because it sounds like a good idea? To them, anyway. And you don’t want to do it, mostly because you just want to be alone, but if you say that, it’ll hurt their feelings. Or look like an attitude problem. Yeah, I hate that. Except when I don’t hate it. There are times when I’m all for it. Usually at the beginning, but then I’ve set a precedent (“Carpooling is a great idea!” ‘Wow, it makes so much sense for me to sit in here with you instead of over there by myself!”) and backing out is difficult. It’s like breaking up (“No, it’s not that I don’t like you. I do. I just need some space.” “It’s not you, it’s me.”), except not so permanent. I need an excuse that sounds reasonable and won’t hurt anybody’s feelings.
I’m just not in the mood for people. People in general. You guys are good, the people at my gym are good, but everyone else? I want to hide from everyone else. For now, though, I’ll settle for sleep.